So. What’s been going on in my life lately?
Well, here’s something I am struggling with right now: For a lot of people, it’s probably no big deal. But for me, a terribly shy introvert, it’s sort of intimidating. When someone in our church has a birthday, the worship team usually makes that person go up front to sing Happy Birthday to them. My birthday is on a Sunday this year, and my heart just pounds at the thought of the worship team saying my name and asking me to come on stage in front of the whole church.
However, I’ve been praying about it, and I asked God that if they do that, to please give me courage and strength to just do it, smile about it, and laugh it off. Because they don’t do it to be mean, and obviously I do need to get out of my comfort zone. Plus, there’s another guy in church who shares my birthday, so maybe he’ll have to come up front too. But seriously, why do that to someone? Let them enjoy their day in peace. I was venting about it to my dear cousin Kristin, who’s more extroverted, social, and outgoing. I asked her what her opinion was about it, and she even said that she wouldn’t like that done to her either. (In our church, it’s dangerous to have a birthday on a Sunday, lol).
Anyway, if you read this, please pray about this with me. Pray that either they’d forget about it and I wouldn’t have to go up on stage, or pray that if it does happen, that I could just have the courage and strength to just do it and get it over with.
In other news, I still desire/struggle with being single. I really do hope to marry a good, godly man and have children of my own someday. I also want to be a foster and adoptive parent. But in some ways, I feel like my bookmobile co-workers from the library are my “kids”.
1. They say the funniest things to make me laugh. :)
2. They mess up my room. (I work in a back room which we call the “Cave”; it’s windowless, and if I want to see out, I have to open the big garage door, but since it’s been so stinkin’ cold lately, I haven’t been doing that). Well, today we were just swamped! There were 2 large bags and 3 crates of books that had to be shelved. In addition to that, there was 1 crate and 2 carts of books that needed to be checked in! But as much I dislike clutter, I often remind myself, “If I was married and had kids, I’d probably be picking up their toys and putting them away. At this time in my life, I’m shelving books and putting them away.”
3. My co-workers are such wonderful,kind people, and they do help out. I’m sure I’d be dealing with tantrums and whining if I had kids and I asked them to put stuff away. Well, I shouldn’t say that. I teach the 2 and 3 year olds at church on Wednesday nights, and they literally ALWAYS help put toys away without a complaint! I am so grateful for that. Their parents taught them well. <3
4. I also loved that this past summer on Monday nights, the bookmobile drove past our house and honked the horn! Due to a main road being closed, they had to take our road on the way back to the library.
5. I love bringing in goodies and treats for my co-workers. I’ve brought them brownies, butter pecan fudge, cupcakes, and the library is having a soup carry-in for staff on Tuesday, so I’m bringing in Cherry Delight. I love surprising them with fun little surprises. :D And I’m planning on baking them Christmas cookies this year as a gift. (I’m thinking Monster Cookies with red and green M ‘n’ M’s).
And quite honestly, I really do feel like God wants me at the library right now. I have peace about it, and if I had a boyfriend and he proposed to me right now, I really wouldn’t want to leave my job. I do want a husband and kids to serve someday, but I also love serving my bookmobile family. I love organizing the Cave, baking treats for the bookmobilers, and just joking around with them and confiding in them. Sort of like I might do with a husband someday.
And I had to think: If I was married right now with kids, would I look back and wish I hadn’t taken it for granted? Someday I may look back on my bookmobile years and think, “Those were the best years of my life. Why didn’t I savor and enjoy them more?” So I’m really trying to enjoy it while I can, savor it and love it.
Because someday I may have a cluttered house with kids who don’t want to pick up their toys.
Here is my wonderful bookmobile family. If I remember correctly, I think this picture was taken in 2012, in front of the Bluebird bookmobile. (The other bus, called the Freightliner, was in the garage). I love these people to bits. I am so thankful God placed them in my life. They have all encouraged me, made me laugh, challenged me, and are just a blessing to be around! From left to right: Gary, Linda, Phil, Marty, Ashley.